Tsukasa
Mon Jun 2, 2003, 09:47 PM
Thanks for this <3! (you know who you are)
Love, something undefined yet defineable in nature. So many things that we can feel are often defined as love. Obsession, lust, jealousy, romance, emotions, dreams and sacrifice are all things that can often be confused with love. What is love really?
I can say that I thought I was in love.. more than a few times and over trial and tribulation realized that it was either one of the falsities above or something else that I've experienced. Love is not supposed to bring about pain, hurt and suffering. It is true that things are sacrificed in the name of love, but is it truly what is demanded? I don't think so.
The other day someone IM'ed me with "<3" as a start to a conversation and it got me thinking about the meaning of "<3". Its a heart, which symbolizes many things, love is only one of them. Love is only one thing in a vast sea of meanings. So does that mean that 'love' is not all its cracked up to be? Well, I think love is a wonderful and beautiful thing, when it is truly felt. I think love is not where you feel so good being around someone that you "HAVE" to be with them all the time or you start falling into depression. Love is not feeling so deeply about a person that you would do "ANYTHING" for them. People who abuse themselves in the name of love are not truly experiencing love, but looking for a simple feeling of completion that they get around only 'one' person. That's an abuse of love. I have been guilty of that before.
I've thought about the things that can define love and the closest word synonym that I can think of is "respect". "Respect" is something about someone that makes you look up to them, not in worship, but in praise, yet not in obsession. Too many times in live have I been with someone who wanted me to become "Devoted" to them and only them. In a way, that is selfishness because a person cannot be complete with only one other person. A person can only be complete when he or she is happy with not just one person, but people. Love doesn't mean you can't stand to be away from someone for any period of time because it hurts (That's called poison). Love means that the more you are around someone and the more you go away from each other, the more you look forward to spending time with that person another day. To discover more about that person understanding you will never truly know EVERYTHING about them and are excited that everyday you learn more. It means that you are happy to spend time away from each other because you know the next time you see each other, both of you will discover more wonderful things about the other.
Sometimes things become sadder, its an evitability. But finding comfort when the times are sad is worth ten times being happy when everyone should be happy. It doesn't mean we shoud live our lives in sadness, hoping someone will come around to make us happy, but that we should be happy we have people who "love" us enough to come around when we are feeling low.
For the longest time i've thought that I'd been unhappy in my life. But I have realized in a few friends that I have absolutely no reason to be unhappy.
I am in love, not with any specific person, but with my life. It's filled with enough twists and turns that its never not exciting and I know that there's plenty more to look forward to in the future. I am in love because I have learned not to abuse love. Not to claim that it does not exist for me when it does. There aren't too many of you reading this journal, but to those few who are, who do take an active interest in my life, who reach out and touch the emotions that I am enjoying or suffering in my poetry. I love you, my reader because as you look upon these words, you are glancing down into my soul and seeing me for who I am.
I have had many names throughout my journey.
I am the troubador, Edward the bard who conquered his own fear after the 'loss' of his beloved to continue living life on (FFVI reference for those of you who don't know). I am Flattery, the elf whose words dance around your heart mischievously promising fun and excitement. Glowworm the dancer, who lives in the music as a part of it. I am Tsukasa, who hides in his own little world, shutting himself off from the pain of real life. Most of all I am Robbie, your friend, your brother, your nephew, your cousin, your secret admirer, your pal, your buddy, your confident, your conscience. I am a part of all these things and I am me.
With love,
Your Meandering Bard
Robbie
Love, something undefined yet defineable in nature. So many things that we can feel are often defined as love. Obsession, lust, jealousy, romance, emotions, dreams and sacrifice are all things that can often be confused with love. What is love really?
I can say that I thought I was in love.. more than a few times and over trial and tribulation realized that it was either one of the falsities above or something else that I've experienced. Love is not supposed to bring about pain, hurt and suffering. It is true that things are sacrificed in the name of love, but is it truly what is demanded? I don't think so.
The other day someone IM'ed me with "<3" as a start to a conversation and it got me thinking about the meaning of "<3". Its a heart, which symbolizes many things, love is only one of them. Love is only one thing in a vast sea of meanings. So does that mean that 'love' is not all its cracked up to be? Well, I think love is a wonderful and beautiful thing, when it is truly felt. I think love is not where you feel so good being around someone that you "HAVE" to be with them all the time or you start falling into depression. Love is not feeling so deeply about a person that you would do "ANYTHING" for them. People who abuse themselves in the name of love are not truly experiencing love, but looking for a simple feeling of completion that they get around only 'one' person. That's an abuse of love. I have been guilty of that before.
I've thought about the things that can define love and the closest word synonym that I can think of is "respect". "Respect" is something about someone that makes you look up to them, not in worship, but in praise, yet not in obsession. Too many times in live have I been with someone who wanted me to become "Devoted" to them and only them. In a way, that is selfishness because a person cannot be complete with only one other person. A person can only be complete when he or she is happy with not just one person, but people. Love doesn't mean you can't stand to be away from someone for any period of time because it hurts (That's called poison). Love means that the more you are around someone and the more you go away from each other, the more you look forward to spending time with that person another day. To discover more about that person understanding you will never truly know EVERYTHING about them and are excited that everyday you learn more. It means that you are happy to spend time away from each other because you know the next time you see each other, both of you will discover more wonderful things about the other.
Sometimes things become sadder, its an evitability. But finding comfort when the times are sad is worth ten times being happy when everyone should be happy. It doesn't mean we shoud live our lives in sadness, hoping someone will come around to make us happy, but that we should be happy we have people who "love" us enough to come around when we are feeling low.
For the longest time i've thought that I'd been unhappy in my life. But I have realized in a few friends that I have absolutely no reason to be unhappy.
I am in love, not with any specific person, but with my life. It's filled with enough twists and turns that its never not exciting and I know that there's plenty more to look forward to in the future. I am in love because I have learned not to abuse love. Not to claim that it does not exist for me when it does. There aren't too many of you reading this journal, but to those few who are, who do take an active interest in my life, who reach out and touch the emotions that I am enjoying or suffering in my poetry. I love you, my reader because as you look upon these words, you are glancing down into my soul and seeing me for who I am.
I have had many names throughout my journey.
I am the troubador, Edward the bard who conquered his own fear after the 'loss' of his beloved to continue living life on (FFVI reference for those of you who don't know). I am Flattery, the elf whose words dance around your heart mischievously promising fun and excitement. Glowworm the dancer, who lives in the music as a part of it. I am Tsukasa, who hides in his own little world, shutting himself off from the pain of real life. Most of all I am Robbie, your friend, your brother, your nephew, your cousin, your secret admirer, your pal, your buddy, your confident, your conscience. I am a part of all these things and I am me.
With love,
Your Meandering Bard
Robbie